Mental Rehab!

Artist, especially writers and most definitely poets sometimes spend years producing a project. You can lose focus as many of us suffer from ADD and/or you just get drained emotionally. When you write for cathartic reason like I do...you need to take a break and commune with God. Thank goodness I was able to recharge for 3 weeks being waited on hand and foot...when I returned home, my mind, spirit, and zeal were in line creatively. I'm so ready but, as we all know we have a habit of getting in our own way.

Thank God, I'm out of my way and my 3 weeks away from the computer...mind you was nice.

So it's me...I'm on and poppin and Hymns of a Lonely Heartache is just a heartbeat away. Trust...the campaign HAS Begun and your support will be a God Love send, as we've all had and/or suffered a HOALA from time 2 time. Holla!

Blessings and until next time...Dream Big, Finish What You Start, and Get out of your own way!

Always...HOALA...oh it's 1:02 am...Good Night and Good Morning!***

(productive writing today...it was a long one and I'll sleep well...rough draft print 2morrow=)

Lana "ellemarie" Grissom

Inside the Mind Behind

Indigo State of Mind

A fellow blogger I'm i nspired by posted the perfect "Don't take it Personal..." post. Her eloquence and wisdom summed up my sintiments exactly.

One this Day...

This day August 26th...I was sparred by the grace of God 4 short years ago. God said no as it was not my time to go...home. I felt the warmth of the Lord, the peace of Elohim, and the safety of my Father...as I was submerged in the water, lifeless. Sparred for a purpose to proclaim how great is our God...great as he overcame death and defeated it by raising from the dead. He rose me from my "dead" and gave me "life" in order to fulfill my God given destiny, that has been written specifically for me. Liquid blessings flow relieving my often heavy heart as I adjust to my newly found body disabled, challenged, often frustrated, extremely emotional, and confused at the reverse in my shattered dreams. My path is now laid forth in plain site...I walk by faith in knowing that in this life we will suffer but, he'll never give you too much to handle. Even when you think you can't bare much more of this heaviness you have to go back and grasp that it was he...who was forsaken. As he bore the wages of sins past, present, and future for you~Selah awww pause and ponder in the enormity of his love. Go to that for comfort and encouragement because at the end of the day is the end. Suffering brings a refinement to your character and a polishing of a precious stone...giving you the courage to keep moving on. We all will suffer and have trials that will put us to the test rendering our testimony to be shared authentically.

Inside the Mind Behind HOALA: Turn on the light...

Inside the Mind Behind HOALA: Turn on the light...: "and light a candle. Burning is Glade Lavender Vanilla...yummy, if it wasn't a candle - I'd eat it.Wow, it's been a whirlwind of emotional up..."

Turn on the light...

and light a candle. Burning is Glade Lavender Vanilla...yummy, if it wasn't a candle - I'd eat it.

Wow, it's been a whirlwind of emotional uprising for the past month...a mental riot of sorts. I had to become completely broken, in order to progress. Also, anxiety can get the worst of you...pain gripping that just sits on you,

Thank God for Ativan and the Holy Spirit. I guess my sifting problem has blown through, ran it course, and further humbled my face and hands outstretched to you. I needed the pruning, my ends clipped...in order to further grow. I was getting scared and tremendously overwhelmed but, as I continued to listen to the spiritual sermons on

K-WAVE, watch my spiritual documentaries, read my Bible, and set away. Get real quite and cry out to the Lord for he is worthy and just. When you come to him...come with a contrite heart on bended knee and he will hear you.

The glow will will returns, the words have meaning and they make sense...you can finally feel it warm your soul/heart - Touch is extremely important. Seek and You will Find which is greater in you is greater than he who rules the world. The comfortable Freedom and Permission to delve forward...excellent new material stored in my minds heart which I'm waiting anxiously to create.

Friday night...tonight, I edited my profile. If I'm going to be honest in this process...than b honest.

Read the profile as it takes courage to admit one's present state, than precieved. I now know that I was beautiful walking and still beautiful rolling...I just need to feel that. I do at times...most of the time as there beauty at the end of this rainbow. God is writing my life's story...Holla HOALA...One!

Inside the Mind Behind HOALA: Emotionally Exhausted

Inside the Mind Behind HOALA: Emotionally Exhausted: "You come to a road in life when you have to be honest and true, but gutting is exhausting. I've slept for about two day's straight only waki..."

Emotionally Exhausted

You come to a road in life when you have to be honest and true, but gutting is exhausting. I've slept for about two day's straight only waking to write. Self publishing isn't easy but, HOALA is being guided and created by Daddy...it's his way or no way. I feel as I'm being reborn all over again through HOALA. It has to be authentic and truthful to be effective and Daddy has the whip out because he allowed me to live for his purpose. I'm not here masked...I've been masked most of my life, now it's time to unmask - in order to heal and save lives. So many people go their entire lives living in a realm of unreality, well I've had my show and I was not happy. Now the flood gates have been opened in these tear ducts of mine and my heart aches at the atoning it must make. Who ever knew heartfelt emotional crying could be so emotionally exhausting.

Indigo

Indigo was the mood of the day...almost cried twice today, but it's just Aunt Flows time. A really strange girl sat uncomfortably close to me on the train today, invading my personal space. I live for moments like this...that 5150 to write about, that stranger you encounter on the street. Just watching and observing there every move...not knowing they have just inspired a HOALA.

I'm not sure this is correct!